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do you seriously want to know what goes on in my head? what the hell would you want to do that for?....eh, i can understand why actually. there's a party in my head. yea that's right, a party. complete with smurfs and fraggles...and they're dancing around to 50 cent (little mama show me how yo work it) and they're drinking lots o'liqur (go ahead and put your back in to it)...there's one little fraggle passed out on top of the sink (do your thang like there ain't nothin to it)and a smurf passed out on the bar (shake, shake that ass girl)...who knew fraggles and smurf could throw such a party?..................(i warned you it was random in here....)
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Feb. 3rd, 2007 @ 07:00 pm eh
Current Mood: contemplative
The Act of Missing.

I miss looking in your eyes,

those beautiful eyes,

that let me see straight into your soul.



I miss the warmth of your touch on my skin,

the feel of your breath on my neck,

the quite whisper in which you say my name.



I miss your arms around me,

holding me so tightly,

making me feel so safe.



I miss they way you held my hand.

I miss the way that you never had to say anything,

all it took was just one look from you

and I knew everything was going to be ok.



I miss you.

I miss every little thing about you.

And with every day that passes

I'm fnding it harder and harder to let go.
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Jun. 13th, 2006 @ 04:56 am random
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: in the rough - anna nalick
seriously this still works? lol anyway i'm at work and bored out of my mind....congrats (you know what i'm talking about) i love you two and hey i read ur entry on how and i gotta tell you sooo sweet....makes me sick just kidding lol ah work work and more work...it seems like all i do know......so i've been with jarid for almost five months now and i gotta tell you i'm happier now than i've been in a long time....with everything in my life (well ok my job sucks but hey who's doesn't?) i have a boyfriend that love me and friends that love me....what more could a girl ask for? i haven't been this happy since....well i dunno maybe when i lived in prov. it's so nice, no more drama.....it's about time. lol. i dunno what to do with this newfound happiness....perhaps i'll do a jig...or more likely i'll go to the beach or something with jarid and just kinda curl up in his arms and relax......
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Jan. 31st, 2006 @ 09:23 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: loved
i heart jarid...el yay.
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Dec. 22nd, 2005 @ 08:33 pm stupid quiz lol
5 YEARS AGO

How old were you? 17
What school year were you in? junior
Where did you go to school? Warwick Vets

Where did you work? shaws

Where did u live? Warwick

Where did you hang out? random places

How was your hair style? uh my hair was long i'm a girl people let's face it it was randomly changing

Did you wear braces? no

Did you wear glasses? Yes

Who was your best friend? anthony

Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend? sam

Who was your celebrity crush? johnny depp baby oh yea
Who was your regular-person crush? anthony

How many piercings did you have? about 9

How many tattoos did you have? None

What was your favorite band? creed and the goo goo dolls yea i know random

What was your biggest fear? i dunno....spiders.

Had you smoked a cigarette yet? no

Had you gotten drunk or high yet? hes

Had you driven yet? No
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Dec. 21st, 2005 @ 09:13 am yippy for me
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: have a nice day - bon jovi
so i was sitting on my bed yesterday....and i deleted him from my phone book (those of you who know me, know who "he" is reffering to....i'm extremely proud of myslef....it's little, but it's a start.
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Dec. 10th, 2005 @ 07:34 pm (no subject)
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Mike Logan


What Law & Order Character Are You?
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Nov. 22nd, 2005 @ 03:08 pm quiz.....ok i got bored.
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: christmas crap
7 Deadly Surveys:

WRATH

1. Who did you last get angry with?:
uh...probably my manager at shaws

2. What is your weapon of choice?:
a big pretty gun that's fun to play with

3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?:
yes

4. How about of the same sex?
yes

5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?:
.,...my boss at shaws lol

6. What is your pet peeve?:
um stupid little things

7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?:
depends on the person and the action

SLOTH

1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time?:
um......clean my room maybe

2. What is the latest you've ever woken up?:
arond 3pm

3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't?:
um...mabye my girl chris

4. What is the last lame excuse you made?:
um.....i dunno

6.When was the last time you got a good workout in?:
uh, the last time i did football cheerleading lol

7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?:
three

GLUTTONY

1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?
starbucks...i heart starbucks

2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat?:
Both

3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?:
alot....maybe six drinks, four shots, two beers and half a bottle of 101 proof liqur

4. Are You comfortable with your drinking habits?:
oh hell yes

6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?:
spicy

7. Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "lunch"?:
no

LUST

1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)?:
uh.....i don't really remember, and a few that i' m choosing not to remember

2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)?:
dunno

3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation?:
maybe

4. Have you had sex?:
yes

5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice?:
eyes...i know i'm dorky

6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?:
No

7. Have you ever gotten tested for STDs or pregnancy?:
No

GREED

1. How many credit cards do you own?:
none

2. What's your guilty pleasure store?:
victoria's secret

3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it?:
buy victoria's secret and possibly a bookstore

4. Would you rather be rich, or famous?:
rich

5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?:
yes

6. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?:
0

PRIDE

1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of?:
survived on my own

2. What's one thing you have done that your parents are most proud of?:
probably musical accomplishments

3. What thing would you like to accomplish later in your life?:
grad from college at some point

4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?:
depends on what it is

5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?:
Yes

6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score?:
yes

7. What did you do today that you're proud of?:
um....got up i suppose

ENVY

1. What item of your friends would you most want to have for your own?:
i want kevins car

2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with?:
hmm....dunno...

3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?:
good question.....carmen electra....her husbands hot lol

4. Have you ever been cheated on?:
yes

5. Have you ever wished you had a different physical feature?:
Yes

6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?:
not quite sure

7. Finally,what is your favorite Deadly Sin?:
possibly lust
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Nov. 17th, 2005 @ 04:22 am random
Current Mood: working
Current Music: frosty the snowman...again
so yea, i had another dream last night but this one wasn't really weird it was just a converation with kevin. on another note, i hadn't heard from him in almost month, so i sent him a message on myspace just to say hi and to see how he was going and what not...and he actually wrote back...i've heard from him three times in the past week...woo hoo. i havent heard from chris in about a week...he said i woulnd't hear from him for a few weeks though cause he's moving so he's gonna call me when he finds out his new number..if he remembers that is. the good new is princess and i are going to get an apartment together in may after the spring sememster.woo hooo. fun stuff. she's been my bestest friend for ten year so we should get along pretty well. yay. well, i'm off to get some work done.....ciao!
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Nov. 16th, 2005 @ 04:06 am odd...
Current Music: frosty the snowman
i had a really weird dream last night....i was cooking lobster in the microwave in some store and next to the microwave were books so i was looking at them and someone stared to talk to me and i looked and it was alan and then he was checking on the lobster.....uh, lis confuzzled.
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Nov. 8th, 2005 @ 07:23 am oochi walli walli oochi bang bang...lol song's stuck in my head
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: jet
so nothing seriously interestings been going on lately....work work and more work. i might hang out with chris tonight....i'm kinda glad i'm not really telling chris cause i'm kinda getting over it. mostly because i know chris, i've known chris since eigth grade..and i know i'm not quite sure what i'm looking for but i do know that whatever it is chris can't give me. i never believed in soul mates, so i know that's not it....and i'm not necessarilly looking for love, but i think i want someone to prove to me that love exists and makes me want to believe in again. my past relationship with sam was just fucked up and crushed evertything i believed in on the subject. i don 't really believe in love anymore, and i certainly don't believe that you can be in love and be happy....maybe that thought is unrealistic but who knows. i think i just want someone that will prove me wrong. i dunno...makes sense in my head i suppose.
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Nov. 4th, 2005 @ 09:08 pm yippy skippity
Current Mood: ditzy
Current Music: people chattering at work
lol i'm goin to dave and busters tonight with some girls from OD should be fun...i seriously need to get out more and chill i work so much and it makes me sooo stressed...part of the reason i'm going crazy i think lol but yay my friend sara and i went to salem on the 29th and had a blast woo hoo i love salem, i go every year so yippy i'm running out of things to say...i got a new cell phone and that's always exciting i was supposed to hang out with chris at some point this week but you know stoners lol they forget everything alrighty then, i'm off to get drunk. ciao my peeps lol
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Oct. 28th, 2005 @ 07:45 am grrr
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: need you tonight - INXS
so the stupid power outage a few days ago knocked out our server at work and our comps haven't really been working for the past two days...seeing all of my job involves the comp well this is a serious problem for me....grrr damn it grrr....

so i'm going to salem tomorrow..yippee...i love salem, it'll be fun woo hoo wooo hoo woo hoo.....

talked to chris last night, he's gonna come chill with me um..maybe monday...he's going through some prety crappy issues at the moment so i told him to come hang out with me and he agreed woo hooo. lol good news, he's not going to holland...bad news, he's going to africa instead.....damn it. chris in africa, who'd of thunk it?
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Oct. 25th, 2005 @ 07:06 am ...
still dunno what to do about chris...little confuzzled here oh i dunno...i'm just trying not to think about it i guess i'll just see what happens blah blah blah lol god i'm bored i hate being up this early but you know work is work so i guess i should get back to it...ciao!
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Oct. 20th, 2005 @ 04:36 am hmmm
Current Mood: cynical
Current Music: curbside prophet - jason mraz
so yea i know i should listen to everyone and tell chris but you know me i overthink everything wayyy to much and i know what we've done hasn't changed anything but i'm scared that me telling him will be the thing that changes everything and quite honestly he's one of my best friends and i don't want to lose that. another thing that sorta bothers me is that chris is a stoner...and i don't really want to deal with that....so i dunno...i'm thinking i'm just gonna leave it alone for awhile.
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Oct. 18th, 2005 @ 06:03 am blah blah pooey
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: green day
ok so i sorta need to vent and so i thought i'd hop on and vent......so i hung out with chris alot today....and i dunnoooooooo....i never sorta thought he was hot before...i mean i've known him forever since he was chubby pimply (haha...funny word) i always sorta thought that he was cute...and when i've seen him recently he's been in like a hoodie and jeans which is what i've always seen him in so i never really thought further than yea he's kinda cute but he came over yesterday and i was on the phone and i opened my door when he was getting out of his car and i seriously stopped mid sentence and almost dropped my cell...and i was just kinda like damn...kinda hit me the chris is actually seriously hot...he just had like this tight t shirt on and his hair is short and preppy like now (well, as preppy like as chris is gonna get) but i was just kinda like ummmm......yea......i had to go with him to get a passport yesterday so he can go to holland to meet some girl who lives in africa that he's been talking to for a few years now and that kinda of annoyed me and i didn't want him to go and i have no clue where that's coming from and that annoyed me more...i always knew i had a little crush on chris but this is ridiculus now i actually kinda want him and i don't get it or understand where this is coming from...i don't want him to go yes i'm scared i'm gonna lose my friend (he told me once he wanted to move to africa to be with her) and that's a major part of it...but i think some of it is i kinda want to know what where it would have gone if we had hooked up...i've always sorta wondered but i've been thinking about it a lot more lately cause honestly i've slept with the kid twice and it's like nothing has ever happened..and that's not normal. your always told sleeping with your best friend is a bad idea because it really does change everyything i mean me and anthony just kissed and see how that ended up but me and chris have done that and it really didn't change a thing which is making me think our friendship is stronger than i thought which is making me think that maybe we should have hooked up and maybe it might have worked for awhile...i mean there are things i that do annoy the crap out of me like the fact that he's such a stoner..but there's things i love about him too...like how passionate he is about his music (yes folks, we all know i'm a sucker for musicians, no shock here) and yea he has really really pretty green eyes (yes, we know about my love of eyes to....musicain with pretty eyes...always a deadly combination with me)....anywho seeing as i'm rambling in circles and confusing myself, i think i'll stop now. another thing i did yesterday...found out something rather disturbing about one of my friends, a teacher, and france......yea, i'm definatly disturbed and really mad i didn't find out before. lol ciao.
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Oct. 13th, 2005 @ 04:01 pm aaaahhh....
my vacation has been so nice and peaceful..... =) perfect week for a vacation...yes i know it's crappy and rainy outside but it's a perfect excuse for stayin in bed ....... el yay!
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Oct. 7th, 2005 @ 02:35 am ......
still.....feel.....icky.......damn it i hate being sick........supposed to go to my friend's party tomorrow night, don't know if i still wanna go. i guess it depends on how i'm feeling
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Oct. 5th, 2005 @ 11:10 pm ewww....
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: breathe - faith hill
ugh....lissa feel icky....i thought at first it was just allergies, but now if feel like i'm gonna be sick and the more i stare at the screen the blurrier it gets.....next week i'm on vacation from both of my jobs...i can't wait i seriously need the rest.
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Oct. 4th, 2005 @ 11:40 pm ....
i'm starting to change my mind about the whole berklee thing.......
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Oct. 4th, 2005 @ 02:03 am oy...
ok so can i just tell you that this whole berklee thing has got me scared out of my damn mind? first of all i don't think i'm good enough to get in anyone (i know i know i'm gonna get hit for that comment) but the fact of the matter is that if i really don't get accepted i will be absolutlely heartbroken and devastated and never want to sing again...and that's not a pretty thought. i'm not sure if i'm really gonna go...but i do know i need to apply because not doing it because i'm scared isn't really a good reason not to..at least this way i can say i tried.
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